“Happiness is the art of never holding in your mind the memory of any unpleasant thing that has passed.” -Unknown
Things do happen quite fast and for so many reasons, and with a snap of fingers hard-earned friendships can disappear. I’ve never made a blog post this private and personal but hey- haha!
What’s up you guys? Life’s fun! I’ve been breaking rules, promises, and lose rhythm again! It’s summer vacation, it’s scorching hot, and I’m currently having a massive mental/art block (which is fine because I’ve been very busy doing my “special project”). There’s so many things that happened during my absence, but obviously I’m not telling all of them, as usual. 😶
Okay, how do I even start this post? School’s been very busy and stressful not just for me but also for my “former” friends. Too many arguments that should’ve been talked over but ended up in flames instead, infinite criticisms, exchange of hurtful words, empty conversations, and cold shoulders. Maybe it wasn’t the best option for me to do but I did it anyway. Hurting other people’s feelings and destroying friendships aren’t my specialty and I regretted it. I know I take part with the blame and I admit that I’m not a perfect friend.
Deep inside I know that there’s no way I can take those words back and it’s best for me to just move on forward and forgive myself, the same time I forgive and forget them. I know I’m imperfect but I’ve had enough. It’s not easy to let go of people that I used to love; and basically it’s like burying them and I’m forced to erase everything that we’ve been through in my mind. The arguments wasn’t shallow and they lasted for months, and I got tired of it. I’m sorry. I know, deep within, that I’ll miss them, but it’s as far as our story goes.
Leaving people behind is something not new to me, and I can never get used to it. I hope whatever I’m feeling right now, especially this sadness, goes away sooner.
Posted 4/13/2017 11:30PM